FORGET EVERYTHING

i walk

i think

think think think

conversation 
conversation with myself
Inside my head 

there is a question with no answer


stop! i stop to think

then....i walk


walk walk walk

as 

i see a lot

and 

i capture whatever image in front of me 


in order to ...................










HIS PURPLE BAJU MELAYU

for the past two days i've been wearing his baju melayu to bed. I miss him. Al fatihah to my beloved oldman and all the passengers in #mh370.

May Allah bless their soul.

maaf tuhan...hanya untuk ini malam... saya janji tuhan.. hanya ini malam .. biarkan saya menangis. sikit sahaja. orang kata jangan lebih melampau nanti orang  disana sengsara. sebelum terlampau saya akan henti.




satu, dua, tiga, empat,




dua ratus empat puluh..



iya ...saya berhenti. terus saya melakar di atas kertas contengan agar memori kehidupan lampau bersama oldman berhenti putar tayang dalam kepala ini . betullah kata murakami "memories warm you up from the inside but they also tear you apart"

saya sangka kalau saya sibuk tentu sayu itu hilang tak akan timbul kembali. sangka saya itu salah.